plantation

once you plant the seed of your heart and soul into someone else
it can never be removed
it will grow
forever

cycle

after the rain
comes the sunshine?
yes but not every single time

my mind is telling me that i'm done and over you
i am happy again without you
i can breathe again without you

but

there are times where the smallest things
reminds me of you
and it fucking breaks me down completely.

its like a cycle
i can go on 2 weeks happy
and bam
you come back into my mind.

these mixed emotions
i dont even know how to explain anymore.

two sides of me are fighting against each other.

when is this battle going to end?
when is this phase going to end?

just let me fucking rest
please

reflection

it wouldve been perfect,
if you gave me the time to settle down.

for now,
just let it burn,

you gon learn.

dont wanna

back then, you were somebody
then you became my everything
but now youre nobody.

fly away

every goal begins with the first step.

flashback

so today while i was at work,
something happened..

i was folding shirts at the time,
these two songs started playing on the radio,
and it struck me right away..

i guess it really isnt possible
to forget something no matter
how much it hurt you.

the rain tonight isnt helping either.

it was like watching a film,
everything replayed again.
i was reliving the past..

i still remember that day.
that day when i bussed you home,
and we listened to these songs on your ipod.
both of us were upset,
and you took me to the park
because you wanted to
see me smile again

i still remember,
i still remember.

do you remember,
do you?

let it rain.

i wanna be

you hear me?

february 14th, 2010
我自己一個過.
真希望有妳陪我過

the stupid rain
makes me think about you like crazy.

it aint like i gotta
tell you you're a star
you're a star
you be shining and be
sparkling in the dark

do you think about me too?

晚安
sleepyhead.

why?

why are you tearing?
you made the decision.
aren't you happy with your life now?
why are you tearing because of me?

如果能讓我重新在來一次
我希望我不曾出現在你生命裡

memories