cycle

after the rain
comes the sunshine?
yes but not every single time

my mind is telling me that i'm done and over you
i am happy again without you
i can breathe again without you

but

there are times where the smallest things
reminds me of you
and it fucking breaks me down completely.

its like a cycle
i can go on 2 weeks happy
and bam
you come back into my mind.

these mixed emotions
i dont even know how to explain anymore.

two sides of me are fighting against each other.

when is this battle going to end?
when is this phase going to end?

just let me fucking rest
please